In the midst of all the abuse and even after I was a very troubled soul! I found myself drinking and trying out different types of drugs...from marijuana to prescription drugs. I found myself hanging out with the wrong kind of people and getting into trouble with the law. After the rape and molestation became a very promiscuous young lady and did many things that I am not proud of. At the age of 16 I thought I had found my “true love” and our relationship quickly turned into something I had never had before. He treated me better than I have ever been treated by any “man”. Our relationship got very serious very fast and then came to a crashing halt when he put his hands on me. I had to end it; I could not put myself in the position to be abused by yet another “man”.
Months went by an I realized that something wasn’t right and that I didn’t feel the same; I had been very sick and not feeling the greatest, I had missed my period; I realized that I could possibly be pregnant. I then decided it was time to take a pregnancy test. As soon as I urinated on the stick it instantly came up positive. I found myself expecting a child with a man that I was no longer with due to his physical abuse. A day or two went by and I had finally worked up enough courage to let him know that he would soon be a father; he promised me that he would be there for both my child and myself and provide anything that he could for us. I was very naive and believed what he said. I was so happy that he was on my side and that I would not have to go through this alone! He was the first to hear the news…I hadn’t told anyone yet and I didn’t know how they would react. Some time went by and I told my sister and her best friend and we went down to the local doctor to have me tested…again the test was positive…so I went home and told my mother…she wasn’t too happy to hear that her 16 yr. old daughter was pregnant and said some things that were very mean and hurtful. As she spoke I became very upset and feeling pretty ill; I think that is when it hit my mother, I was going to have a baby...she began to cry and she asked me… “Well what are we going to do?” I replied… “Well I want to keep it!” and was very shocked to hear my mother’s reply “well NO SHIT!!! Do you think I would let you do anything else?” I was so happy and relieved by her reply…She told me that we were going to do this together and that everything would be okay. She told me that she would stick by me and help me in any way that she could. Even though my mother was very upset there was no changing the situation and no going back! My family does not believe in abortion, we are very pro life!
About Me
- Raise Your Voice
- My mission is to serve and reach out to victims of sexual violence. I am starting this site to let you know that it wasn't you fault, isn't your fault and never will be your fault. Nothing you could of done, said or wore would justify what you have been through. I want you to know that you have done nothing wrong and that it was not you who acted out of line. I want to let you know that NO means No...No matter what! I understand that these things may be hard to understand and realize but they are in fact true. You are beautiful! You are strong, You are special, You are Important, You are loved, and You are NOT alone! I want you to know that I too have been victim of sexual abuse and I am here to help you get through this. I know you are sad, I know you are scared and confused, I understand that you are angry! Make you voice be heard...make a stand...never give in...And never give up! This person did not break you they only made you stronger and more aware! Remember you are beautiful! You are strong, You are special, You are Important, You are loved, and You are NOT alone!
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